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First, I want to say as a follow up to my last post. I think it's important I think about why I want those things, and ultimately I want to feel good, happy and accomplished, and I don't need a pull up or a super high box jump to feel happy and accomplished if I can unlearn social training of hating my fat. I need to remember that while perusing physical goals.

My weight hit a new all time high of 220. This is likely all due to the stress and other factors of the pandemic. Here's a graph of my weight since January 2014.

( Cut for graph and discussion. )

Part of what I love about crossfit is that, normally, it is a mix of weight lifting and body weight exercises. I need to get better at body weight exercises, but weight lifting makes me feel like I don't suck all the time, since, in general, I'm stronger than most other people, but given my extra weight, I suck at body weight stuff. (I weight about 80lbs over my 'ideal' weight.)

Sadly, the "at home" workouts assume, rightfully, that you don't have much spare or much equipment, so it's been almost entirely body weight exercises, with the addition of a light weight. This is driving home to me how important the addition of weight lifting into the mix is. It's kind of demoralizing and frustrating how bad I am. I was never very good at the workouts, but at least I could have the consolation prize of throwing 100+ pounds of barbell around, no problem.

It feeds into my "I'm bad at everything," issue. I did get to borrow a bar, so once I'm 100% from this cold and neck pain I had, I will get back to throwing it around.

I have my replacement up for the last few days. It actually works. Things I've learned about myself and the band.

Wearing something 24/7 that I know is recording things about me makes me feel like a tagged animal. I also have to switch wrists because I start to get itchy.

The sleep tracker is, not unexpectedly, not that great. I woke up for a phone call this morning and it didn't notice it as a wake up. What it does tell me is approximately how long it takes me to fall asleep and about how little sleep I get that is relatively restful. I seem to move a lot when I sleep in general.

Taiko I've decided it would be unfair and mean to the device to wear it on my wrist, so I've been wearing it on my shirt. Not sure how much that's throwing it off.

The big win, however, is the inactivity alarm. This is why I went with an Up and not a withings (or anything else.) If I've been sitting too long, it vibrates and I've been actually getting up and getting my circulation and heart rate up.

I'm not sure how long term this device might be for me. The feeling of having it on all the time might drive me batty such that if it does fail in 3 months, I might just give up on at that point. We'll see. I'd give you a link to all my graphs, but one of the down sides of the up is a poor web service.

As a side note, I'm really glad I got the wifi scale. I like seeing the actual graph of my weight and I hope the data will help me when I see more of it.

I'm finding the book "good calories, bad calories" kind of depressing. Sure it has a lot of evidence to show that the "eat less, exercise more" to loose weight thinking is horribly wrong, but it doesn't really have any solutions, other than stop eating refined sugars, HFCS, and potatoes and white flour. But it's only guessing at those. Mostly it says we have lots of research that shows that we know NOTHING about weight gain or loss.