Weight talk again

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First, I want to say as a follow up to my last post. I think it's important I think about why I want those things, and ultimately I want to feel good, happy and accomplished, and I don't need a pull up or a super high box jump to feel happy and accomplished if I can unlearn social training of hating my fat. I need to remember that while perusing physical goals.

My weight hit a new all time high of 220. This is likely all due to the stress and other factors of the pandemic. Here's a graph of my weight since January 2014.





I started looking for a taekwondo place in mid 2014. You can't see that on the graph. I figured out that dairy was causing GI issues and cut dairy out of my diet. You can see the drop from the diet change at D and my body restoring the status quo shortly after that. I thought the dip at C was when I was VERY sick over the holidays, but apparently not. I'm not sure what that dip is. You can see how quickly that rebounded. I started Crossfit in late January of 2019.

A is the march lockdown and B is late November (about the same time I stopped going to TKD in person again.) 5lbs from March to may. 5lbs since November. 

I'm hoping that since this recent weight gain is not due to me regaining weight after a diet, that this will not bump my set point up and that, just like a diet, I will return back to the 2010~ that has been my norm since 2014 once I can return back to my pre-pandemic habits. Either way, I need to remind myself what I really want, which is good mental and physical health, to feel good and strong.

I really do hate my fat, but I also know that isn't working for me in any shape or form. I know it's unhealthy when really bad ideas start sounding good.