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And the obsession gone. It faded a few days ago. I'm still enjoying the game and wanting to play, but the fire of obsession is gone. It's just a plain, ordinary interest now. It was super fun to ride it while it lasted. I keep trying to recapture it, but it's not happening. It's just so interesting how things are muted now and I can't even imagine what I remember feeling or even why. But even the memory still makes me happy.

I hope I can tap into that fire with other things more often. It felt so good for my brain.
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My stupid animal brain looks a the asus and says "you won it! it's special! KEEP! KEEP! KEEP!" but it would be better used in the hands of my mother. I hate that I'm sad to give it up for no other reason than some childish part of my brain that won't shut up. That wants her toy. That wants her prize. I don't think of my self as a selfish person, so it's really annoying to have to fight with that selfish core so openly. How often does it influence me when I don't notice?

Shut up!

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