me and fandom

[forgotten_aria]

I was lamenting that I felt like I didn't have as strong fandom as I used to have. I still love some media and will even spend a lot of time looking at behind the scenes in a "this is very cool, I want to learn more" (and have more,) but I didn't remember recently having that strong heart-tie to any media.

Then I picked a costume I wanted to do for CrossFit's Halloween based on it's movablity and perceived easiness (turns out it isn't easy, but that's a whole other issue.) Something about having to be so detailed focused created the heart-tie. The weird thing is I know how I felt before I started the research and I was definitely in the "I am enjoying this, but it's not that awesome" category, so I know it's been created by the detail focus.

I find this really interesting to think that maybe I wasn't my obsession with things as a kid that allowed me to focus enough to make art and costumes, but that it was making the art and costumes that made me so obsessed.

Or maybe it's a association thing. Maybe my mind knows that if I'm working on a costume I must be obsessed, so it will obsess me.

I'm not sure I can tell the difference.