forgotten_aria

You gotta be bad before you can be good. Success usually only occurs after many failures. So right now I'm struggling with learning how to fail.

I wrote a pretty darn cheesy song, and when it is done I will share it's horrible cheesy glory. Did I mention I'm rapping... not something I should do.

Let's hope I can keep on just doing.

How do you think respect is earned?

I used to think that it was by working hard and being a person with integrity, but now I'm starting to think it's more like charisma. It's a combination of what you do, what you ask for and what you are born with. Or is respect one of those weird social lies that no one really has it, just passing moments of recognition at almost random times?

I know the world isn't fair, and I used to try to fight unfairness when I saw it and be as fair as I could be, but now I'm starting to think I just need to accept that there are things that I can never have in our society, just because of a mix of physically who I am and mentally having some wrong ideas for just too long.

I'm in the process of trying to fix some of the fallacies of my belief system about the world. One of the hardest is retraining the things I've been programmed to want.

I sometimes talk more than people would like. I would often like other people to talk more. When I talk, I do so knowing that what I say isn't the most important thing ever. I expect some of what I say to be lost. But I figure if I give you the information and you only use 1% of it, then it's still better if I'd said nothing at all. I do censor what I say, but apparently not enough for most normal people. I don't say things because I think you're dumb or inadiquate. I'm just trying to be helpful and prevent miscommunicaiton. I'm not sure this is something I can change about myself.

The biggest problem is that most of the people who don't want me to say as much, tend to not commuicate that to me.

I think it's just a mismatch in how much information people want.

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