social and back

[forgotten_aria]

I went to a party and had my first failure to engage in the party without having party anxiety afterwards. I was only sad that I missed a chance to interact with great people I don't see often. I haven't really had much social energy to reach out lately. I've been feeling lonely and unwanted off and on which makes me less likely to reach out. Hopefully I'll get some social spoon back and make plans with people again.

The back has been variable. It was pretty good on Saturday at TKD, but then I was also on advil. I twigged it at the party and some how hurt my knee yesterday, so today I'm not good again. Returning to crossfit seems further and further away. The whole time I'm still paying my monthly fee too... sigh.

Comments

[dcltdw]

If it's the same party we were at, once it became crowded and noisy, my brain just checked out - I think noise especially means my brain just nope out and says "not gonna try and compete with that".

Hope your back gets online soon!

[desireearmfeldt]

Parties are kind of terrible places to socialize, really. :)