Why do I need it?

[forgotten_aria]

So as we speak I'm punting manray. I'm not late yet, but I already got dressed and then got undressed again. It makes me sad that I'm punting.

So why don't I go?

Is it the thought of the money? I had fun last week and it's exercise, so I shouldn't feel too bad about $10.
Is it the though of having to shower the smoke out of my hair afterwards? It's annoying but not that annoying.

I think it's that I need someone to care that I'll be there, but there are people who were looking forward to me being there.

I'm still waffling.

Maybe I should still go...