Social anxiety

I cherish those friends where I don't have to worry what I say is stupid enough that they'll stop liking me. I have a handful of such friends, and for someone who suffers with replaying social situations over and over, their presence is some of the few places I can relax and be happy.

I don't know if I'm getting worse at social interactions, or it just feels worse because I've been hiding from them such that I know life can be anxiety free in my little house-cave.

FB has definitely made me feel like there are certain subjects that I just need to avoid, even in real life. I'm really tired of trying to be a good, open minded person, but still ending up feeling like the bad guy. I hope I am not actually the bad guy (and please, if I am, someone I trust tell me.)

I do need to remind myself that if I don't open my mouth, I can't say something stupid.