Do you like my owl?
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forgotten_ariaI made a Rachel-from-blade-runner-esque costume. I wasn't sure I should, but then I went to the local costume shop and they had the wig, which at the time, I thought was the one I needed and decided to go for it. I bought a very affordable dress off amazon, which wasn't quite right, but evocative. I went owl shopping and finally decided on an adorable owl purse so I could have my stuff with me and an owl. This was after dismissing a breadth of owls, such as owls with teeth and a rainbow sparkles unicorn owl. I made a little layered square out of some old clubbing pants that still had the price tag on.
I fought with the wig. Oh I fought with it. In the process I learned about Victory rolls and wig styling. After more research I realized I should have started with a plain wig instead of a wig that was already 40s styled. I got something again, approximating the style. (Good enough, someone who wasn't told figured out my costume.)
Sadly the photo shoot made me feel fat. I've been doing a lot better about spending more of my life not hating myself for being fat. Eating is a little less guilt ridden and I don't feel overly ashamed at how slow I am at crossfit or about if I'm being good "advertising" for my TKD dojang. ("That's a black belt?!") It comes at a bad time, since I'm also working on another costume which is REALLY going to push the boundaries in my brain of "too fat to cosplay." There was a big discussion on FB about photos on the internet being mocked and made me think about keeping myself safe makes me feel defeated and almost like I admit to the trolls being right. But it's an on going battle.
Owl purse:
I fought with the wig. Oh I fought with it. In the process I learned about Victory rolls and wig styling. After more research I realized I should have started with a plain wig instead of a wig that was already 40s styled. I got something again, approximating the style. (Good enough, someone who wasn't told figured out my costume.)
Sadly the photo shoot made me feel fat. I've been doing a lot better about spending more of my life not hating myself for being fat. Eating is a little less guilt ridden and I don't feel overly ashamed at how slow I am at crossfit or about if I'm being good "advertising" for my TKD dojang. ("That's a black belt?!") It comes at a bad time, since I'm also working on another costume which is REALLY going to push the boundaries in my brain of "too fat to cosplay." There was a big discussion on FB about photos on the internet being mocked and made me think about keeping myself safe makes me feel defeated and almost like I admit to the trolls being right. But it's an on going battle.
Owl purse:
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