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forgotten_aria) wrote2019-01-28 08:22 pm
forgotten_aria) wrote2019-01-28 08:22 pm
trying more things
I went back to crossfit for upper body day and it was much better. I think I'm signing up and they'll make an allowance for me because I want to avoid leg day and I don't really want to do Tuesdays and Thursdays (they alternate days.)
I had wanted to sign up for a silks class, but the person said the class was full but tonight the aerial silks person phoned me and said I could take a trial class and see if my knee would cause me problems. It didn't, but I couldn't get the basic climbing or foot lock down. The other students were having no problems with any of the skills. I really liked the things I could do, so after I asked her how much of a problem it was that I couldn't do the basics. She said most people have trouble, but they condition as they go. Now, I will admit I brought it up, but I said something to the effect of "I'm worried my weight will make it harder for me." Meaning that I would have to gain more strength because of my weight. But she said in response, "have you tried aerobics? You just need a class that makes you sweat." No, a class that makes me sweat is not the easy answer. That's not how it works! I am so tired of naturally thin people thinking being a normal weight is easy. I started crying, told her my weight was complicated, I'd lost weight in the past, but always gained it back and more. I told her I would come back when I was stronger, but I'm not sure I can go back. I feel embarrassed, dismissed and repugnant.
EDIT: and it took away from the things I did do, like hanging upside down and doing situps.
I had wanted to sign up for a silks class, but the person said the class was full but tonight the aerial silks person phoned me and said I could take a trial class and see if my knee would cause me problems. It didn't, but I couldn't get the basic climbing or foot lock down. The other students were having no problems with any of the skills. I really liked the things I could do, so after I asked her how much of a problem it was that I couldn't do the basics. She said most people have trouble, but they condition as they go. Now, I will admit I brought it up, but I said something to the effect of "I'm worried my weight will make it harder for me." Meaning that I would have to gain more strength because of my weight. But she said in response, "have you tried aerobics? You just need a class that makes you sweat." No, a class that makes me sweat is not the easy answer. That's not how it works! I am so tired of naturally thin people thinking being a normal weight is easy. I started crying, told her my weight was complicated, I'd lost weight in the past, but always gained it back and more. I told her I would come back when I was stronger, but I'm not sure I can go back. I feel embarrassed, dismissed and repugnant.
EDIT: and it took away from the things I did do, like hanging upside down and doing situps.
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Honestly they may not be teaching the climbing in the best way. My experience with silks was that the first time i tried them i also couldn't do the basic climbs and i also attributed it to my strength/weight ratio. But then later (and i guarantee you my strength to weight ratio hadn't improved) i took a taster class where they explained the skill and broke it down enough that it actually made sense and i could do it. It was still more tiring than if i was stronger but it seemed that it was more about keeping my body stiff in the right way so i can use the leverage of my legs to get up. Not purely just strength. I did need grip strength though, to keep me on the silks, but that doesn't have to support my whole weight.
Anyway, i don't know if that helps at all...
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