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forgotten_aria) wrote2019-07-23 05:37 pm
forgotten_aria) wrote2019-07-23 05:37 pm
"back" to crossfit
I tried going to crossfit today, even though my back wasn't 100%. I took it easy (I only did 45lbs on my cleans, when I often do ~80.) I switched to strict presses for the WOD. My back is warning me and I'll find out tomorrow if it was a good idea or not.
It hit ALL of my fat/woman baggage however. "Don't look lazy, don't look weak," my brain was screaming at me. It took most of my will power to not pick the bar up and do more. To not add more weight. I was on the edge of tears as I fought against this programming. I think I did a good job, though, of listening to my body, at least I hope I did.
It hit ALL of my fat/woman baggage however. "Don't look lazy, don't look weak," my brain was screaming at me. It took most of my will power to not pick the bar up and do more. To not add more weight. I was on the edge of tears as I fought against this programming. I think I did a good job, though, of listening to my body, at least I hope I did.