forgotten_aria | health, mental health and music

My back is still a bit inflamed but almost better. I think what happened was I over worked my muscles, which let my damaged disk slouch and inflame one of my nerves (by internet self diagnosis, the L5 nerve.) I'm hoping to be ok by Saturday for a group silks class that a friend organized. I haven't been able to do crossfit since two weeks ago and TKD since a week and a half ago. Usually this has a negative effect on my mental health, but I'm doing pretty well. I am looking very much forward to getting back to both, however, so I'll have no problem starting back up.

Also on the mental health thing, I referred to the Winchester Town Day show as a "gig" and had someone assume that I had been paid. I didn't mind the misunderstanding. I seem to have done a better job of breaking the money == worth or money == legitimacy link than I thought. I referred to it as a gig, because with taiko we used to do lots of probonos and they were still gigs. I would love to do a paying gig again someday, but I don't see that happening unless I get involved with a group again. I just don't have the self drive to practice and perform enough.

I've recorded one of the songs that I composed for Winchester down day and I'm pretty happy with it, given my current skill. My singing is a little pitchy, but I think has some really good quality to it. I don't have an autotune filter for ableton, so I just have to live with the pitchiness. There was also a weird resonance that I couldn't tell if it was just inside my head, so I notice it out. I'm currently making a music video for it. My attempt to be dramatic and artsy in the video has great potential for coming across as pretentious, but I think that's a risk I have to take.

I hope to get it done by middle of next week and then start working on my Halloween costume in earnest.