sustainablity

[forgotten_aria]

I took dcltdw's advice and ran a lot slower and a little longer. The self-hatred was much less. It still wasn't fun, but I am kind of neutral about myself right now, which given history is a big win. The good news is I kept my sub 12 minute mile pace for half a mile without stopping to walk. I know that's only a 1/3 of the goal, but it still felt encouraging that I my "slow" pace was the pace I need to maintain.

Sadly the data on the GPS watch seems to be corrupted, so now I can't trust what it said, so who knows. maybe I didn't. I claims I did a 13:15 overall pace over 2 miles and my first mile was 12:27. Given that I was focusing on not making myself miserable, that's not so bad.

The bottom line is I did the running and it hasn't triggered full mental health issues and that's a qualified good.

Comments

[forgotten_aria]

I was trying to go for no expectations, since the intervals were triggering my "I suck," brain thoughts. I will try to go back to the plan, but it doesn't help if I have mental break down to save a physical one.

[dcltdw]

Gotcha. Good plan.

My hope (that, really, I don't have a clue if it'd work or not) is that by doing vastly easier intervals, you can overwrite the triggering thoughts.

[forgotten_aria]

I will definitely try again, but getting stuck in the program doesn't help the metal state.